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Okay so I thought its about time I wrote a proper post about this, I did have one in drafts from aaages ago but I feel that would be kinda irrelivant today, oh and thanks for that shorthand title post lol! Oh well…

Anyway highlighting the fact of how shit my family are they were oh you lost your home because the government screwwed you over you’re not going to be able to afford to buy us xmas presents so we wont bother, my mum gets me a pack of 27p value teabags and wraps that in christmas wrap, worse than nothing because its not a nice surprise in the wrapper its dissappointment and of course my sister gets me nothing but worse than that continuing the tradition of stealing everything off me like she did while we lived together growing up she has stolen everything from my bag of stuff that was valuable to me (which includes some valuable things like signed cds etc) half of my stuff like shampoo etc but I guess that can be replaced, Im just glad I never left my stephs engagement ring in my bag of valuable stuff when I gave them things to look after when I lost my home, dear god ID’ve killed them if they stole or lost that, thankfully I had the common sense and the heart to keep it with me and by my side as a nice memory, of course now she’s back in touch who knows if we might get to that position again, I live in hope of course but with her going through equal financial problems and other difficulties of her own its not great.

So on top of all of that anyway my dad died recently and instead of getting any of the inheritance my sister is also stealing all of that for herself and her 3 kids which she couldn’t even look after (oh sorry you couldn’t keep your pants on while you were a teenager and then you couldn’t bring them up) and Im getting none of it though Im off struggling to even keep a roof over my head and stay alive, of course Im told Im ungreatful by my mum but yeah, expect me to travel down to a funeral I cant afford to travel to with a suit I don’t have because I lost everything and you lot also stole everything from me and Im expected to just sit back and hold a civil tongue while you all talk shit about me just because you have all of the power, Id rather be disowned and lose everything you’ve already stole pretty much everything valuable to me anyway so why not steal everything, its not like I would use that money to get a home and even take steph in so we have no financial problems and can all be well maybe. Sick of my hypocritical family who dont see they’re the self centered ones who only do things when its advantageous to them.

Anyway they couldn’t care less if I died they just want to be right, heck I was even forced to lie for my mum so she could have my sisters kids, I didn’t particularly care as its none of my business and although they would be better off not being bought up by her I did it just because they’re family, but do I get the same respect no, and am I thrown out the instant after Ive lied for her despite the fact she doesnt get the kids for an extra month after that and Im forced to live in some flea and pest infected shithole when I could’ve easily stayed in there for that extra month and sorted myself out before they arrived for somewhere a little better ha, that would be expecting too much, and to expect to get my fair share of the inheritance from my dad thats expecting waaay too much, had I been irresponsible and had 30 kids maybe they’d get thier share but oh Im sorry I have some respect and I’ve only been irresponsible with girls I wanted to have a relationship with and would be happy to get pregnant and raise a kid with, of course those days are long gone as Ive found steph and felt the difference instantly, just a shame life interferes and its not so easy to just be together and happy.  Still if it ever works then she’s my family and her family and forget this shitty pathetic excuse for relatives, they want to be selfish and money grabbing and only care for themselves then fine they lose everyone else.

So its been a while since I posted, I wonder often if steph or other people are reading these who actually know me, of course being added on twitter by a potential employer is never that fun when you’re using it as an internal monologue of your thoughts and feelings and stress as it could come accross completely the wrong way, anyway been feeling really shit lately mostly due to being ignored because stephs decided that ignoring me is better than dealing with the situation where she wants me so she wont develop feelings and will be fine sleeping on the sofa of some idiot she feels nothing for and can work all the hours without an emotional attachment making her guilty she wont see me, its hard to remind her how she use to care and how great we got along if she wont even see me, though for months and months she’d say she wanted and seem happy too, just things and life getting in the way particularly her having no money and not being able to because of things like that. Maybe I shouldn’tve been so full on and just chatted and normal things til she was fully back in love with me but I just didn’t want her getting off with some other random who wouldn’t appreciate her uniqueness like I do and love her so entirely. Maybe she still wants me but it feels she doesnt at times though she has made it clear she wants to and just isn’t able to right now and even said she wont reply til she’s able to, but still I want her to know I still care and want her in my life and would be nice to chat though she’s rarely able to. I just want her to remember the nice times and randomness we shared and how much we have in common, instead she’s probably just going to remember all the crap of me being soppy and telling her how much I miss and want her rather than actual stuff that would make her heart smile and her remember why she wants me. Of course Im always the screwup, just wish things were easier and there was a decent opportunity to spend time with her or her able to stay online for some proper chats and her remember why she loved me.

When an ex gets in touch after a year apart (and some very lengthy arguments before that) and you were literally giving up on the world and losing hope for everything, and thier message is “hope you’re okay” What are you meant to think from that, did she sense something was up? there always was this connection between the two of us, and she knew how much I loved her this entire year and that I wanted her back, and I even messaged her on the aniversary of the day we met many months before so its not like there was any real prompt, unless maybe its associated with her illness as she has been in a lot of pain, maybe at the end of the day I was the one she wanted to make her feel better through it all, who knows. I do feel selfish being so needy of her affection and to know she cares, try to avoid just telling her how bad I got hurting over losing her, dont want to upset her. Anyway its valentines soon and I’ll soon know if she wants to be with me as I’ve been very unsubtle in letting her know it’ll break my heart not to spend it with her, feel selfish for that too at times, just want her to be happy but also want to be with her and be there for her when she needs me.

Resisting telling her how I can’t handle life without her because it hurts too much.

So I saw the other day kevin bacon advertising how EE was a brand new network and opened hundreds of “new” stores all over the country and even in the paper how this “new” network had launched and was formerly known as “everything everywhere” well Im sorry to burst that bubble but these are complete lies. EE was never commercially launched as everything everywhere, however that is what EE stands for. In actuallity however it was formerly known as orange, who I believe were owned by BT, they are still exactly the same company and all of these “new” stores are just rebranded orange stores with exactly the same staff, owners, and useless customer services.

Why such useless customer services, well other than the fact that orange had built up a bad reputation around here for being terrible you must add to the fact that thier “email customer services” were down for over a month, 2 months before this relaunch as EE for all I know they’re still down but I gave up trying to deal with email as it was down an unreasonable length of time, so I tried twittering orange, however this mostly got ignored and they eventually responded far too late as I’d already visited the store by then to attempt to deal with my issues, however this was rather fruitless on the mostpart as well due to the fact that I have had to visit 5 times and still it is mostly unresolved.

My first issue was I had purchased a dongle off thier website to use on a temporary basis, which arrived unactivated and unable to activate in the countryside 13 miles from anything so I had to visit the store to activate it and this was claimed to be a security issue to prevent other people running up the bandwidth charges however no checks were made on my identity that anyone who recieved the dongle in the post couldn’t perform (address and name which was printed on the dongle receipt)

So my main issue, I switched networks from 02 to orange due to thier promise of £30 free credit, provided in 3 £10 matched topup ammounts, however I never recieved this upon my topups so I have been complaining, first they stated wait 14 days which I did, then I returned and they claimed I had recieved it and used the entire £10 credit in phone calls exactly to the penny on numerous 0 second duration phonecalls. However knowing that I had not placed any phonecalls I queried this, and it was stated that I had made 21 0 second calls to one number and 13 to another, all with 3 minute gaps between, cross referencing this with my texts sent and recieved I noticed that it was actually the signal that my phone would send back as confirmation that it had recieved the text from the other party and not phonecalls however they have used this as an excuse to not provide the credit they are supposed to and are quite clearly breaking thier promises here and this is definately illegal. If they investigate the supposed phonecalls on the same level they will see that one of the numbers was gabrielle C (full name redacted for security) who is also on orange and there were not phonecalls at this time but instead texts from her to me and these 0 second calls were confirmations sent back to her phone of the recieved texts, and every 0 second call stated on my account is exactly the same.

However orange, t-mobile and EE (if they are BT then them as well, however I’m uncertain of that this is just speculation due to thier association with BT openzone although that is now known as FON) are all associated with this as they are all now one amalgamation of a company and are all illegally making promises they wont keep and are doing everything and lying to refuse to payout. They refuse to make proper checks to see that what I am stating is correct which it is and thier customer services will fob you off and even hang up on you during the conversation rather than sort this issue out when it is known that these are definately not phonecalls but are associated with text services where no charges should’ve been applied remotely. I even caught the customer services agent out by sending a text while he was on the phone and asking him if there were any calls and he said yes but then after I pointed out it was definately a text he corrected himself from saying it was a 0 second call to saying it was a text message.

I would advise that you stay clear of EE, they may be the only providers of 4g at the moment, however others will shortly get permission to use the bandwidth and at a much cheaper rate and a more reliable service with far far better customer service agents who dont ignore you and fob you off along with lying, only take 4gEE if you’re happy to be lied to and stolen from. (This is not slander due to the fact that this is exactly what orange/EE have done to me)

Translation “blatant theft applies” because it is the most ridiculous rule in horse racing ever, consider this you see a horse going at a reasonable price you think has a chance of coming in each way so you place a bet on it £10 each way at 25/1, later you find out the horse has come in third gaining you the win at 1/5th of the odds based on that race. So that would be a £60 return, however rule 4 applies and you only recieve £40. Ordinarily this might not be such an issue if the horse had improved significantly as a result of changes in the race (although that completely defeats the purpose of taking the odds surely? And if rule 4 applies when you take the sp which means you get the odds that the horse races at and you’re still penalised then it is in definitive terms theft as you have taken absolutely no advantage of taking the odds.)

However in my case I took the odds of 25/1 and the horse raced at 40/1 so I was already penalised for taking the odds, the gamble you take for taking the odds you would think which covers any drifts you might gain in advantage as equally there are those to your disadvantage, however rule 4 applies and because you took the early price you are penalised X pence to the £ on your bet. So had I not taken the odds I would have recieved a whopping £80, however having taken the odds I should have recieved £60 sadly due to rule 4 an additional 30p was stolen to every £1 I waged so I only recieved a return of £40 which is a sad state of events in anyones book and blatant theft of £20 or if you consider other bookkeepers do provide deals where you get the SP if it is better than the odds you take a theft of £40 from me by ladbrokes (where better bet would have returned the full £80)

I feel this rule should not apply to horses where the odds lengthen, only when they shorten at best otherwise it is definitive theft in anyones book.

Remember remember the fifth of novemer, at least thats what we’re always told but what exactly does it mean? Sure its to do with the gunpowder plot and treason and how guy fawkes attempted to destroy parliament by digging underneath and planting gunpowder barrels and was sentenced to be burnt for his crimes.

The question remains however why exactly was he burnt? What happened to drive someone to want to destroy parliament, you have to remember that he wasn’t alone and worked with a crew however he was the figurehead who was caught and publically exectued, so why do we need to remember to this day? Or is it parliament who needs reminding that we infact outnumber them and if they are running the country poorly we can always rise up and destroy them? Remember how close 10 people came to destroying you before working in secret, if you continue to heartlessly cut off the neediest people in society and make people homeless and jobless we can always take you down again.

The last civil war was between the royalists and the parliamentarians, however parliament has become corrupt and filled with people who will happily buy themselves two houses and holidays with public taxing rather than spend it on health care and services that we require, glad to waste it on billion dollar buildings that get under used rather than renovating streets that have become dangerous with potholes and to spend as much money as possible in order to get the budget next term just in case they actually need it for anything, but usually mostly paying themselves off in the process rather than doing anything for society as a whole.

Its not hard to see that there is a potential future on the horizon where a civil war between society and parliament will occur as they are happy to extend the divide between the rich and the poor allowing tax breaks for the rich and the fortunate while cutting off benefits and overcharging those who actually require the assistance, encouraging certain american coffee house chains to open more loss making branches so they can avoid paying tax, which is really just a form of advertising because if they have six branches in one town you see thier brand everywhere and it doesn’t matter that they’re losing money on them as you have no other choice and also competition cannot open a branch in that town if they hold every property, and this is free advertising because they’re saving paying taxes on any of thier branches that actually generate a profit for them which isn’t right, and the excuse that they are generating jobs is ridiculous because another organisation could take that site, generate profits and taxes with whatever they’re doing and because they’re doing it well and generating a profit they would in fact be more likely to hire more staff as it wouldn’t be losing money and require hiring the minimum possible staff to run the branch.

So other than going off on a tangent what point am I getting at? Well there are some protests occurring in london on the 5th of november, most likely nothing will be done about them but I would ask that if you or anyone you know has been effected in some pay by these cuts I think you should make every effort to attend because this could only continue further, if anyone has read my blog or seen my video’s they will know that Im now homeless because the government illegally witheld my housing benefits claiming they would pay them, for 6 months they illegally witheld them and in that time my home was reclaimed from me and now all I have is a cold winter to look forward to, the other night I was getting chest pains around my heart because of the cold so maybe I wont have too much more to put up with this but who knows. I also know that they’ve tried to do this to single mothers with children to look after who Im friends with, luckily they were able to sort it out, however despite doing everything they asked they kept making excuses and postponing til my housing association reclaimed my home and then paid about a month after that, not the full ammount they said they would but they paid the housing association after I was made homeless and taken off the statistic of being unemployed despite the fact that they encouraged me not to take part time work because they threatened to remove my housing benefits and make me homeless if I did, well as you can see they did that anyway so maybe I should’ve taken 8-15 hour shifts where I could.

Sorry that paragraph was getting a little long there. I like to keep my points in the same paragraph and I wasn’t finished with that point, anyway where was I? Well I ended up homeless anyway and they don’t care and I have paper trails showing how they kept promising to pay and making excuses and also part blame on family housing association and trinity housing as where they asked me to fill in yet again a new application form after they claimed to have lost it where family housing forced me to have it filled in on my behalf in front of them by trinity housing and they neglected to sign the page where it was filled in on my behalf and this was rejected making even more delays, but yeah even after they promised to pay it in full and did not and much too late to help months after they stated they would pay it this isn’t right, and its in all of the papers how they are doing this to many people, young people like me, the elderly, the disabled and vulnerable, absolutely everyone is being effected by hearless cuts to council bodies and they happily fund thier own wages and waste of money operations but neglect the people who really need the help.

The ironic part is I actually have a number of workable solutions that government somehow neglect to consider. One vital one is this stupid regulation that allows people to sign out of the working week, it gets taken advantage of far too much, we already have a 48 hour working week which is the largest in all of europe, but employers frequently get every single employee to sign this as standard as it takes away your working rights, often they will make the first week an 80 hour week even if you are on a 20 hour contract, primarily to test you under such conditions but also because you lose your rights to breaks and you have worked an extended week so theoretically they can claim they haven’t done it simply to steal your rights away from you, but also in the hospitality industry it is rife with employees either working 60-80 hour weeks every week as standard or taking two jobs and working themselves into such a state that they are agitable and volitile, I worked with some girls at the NEC who would get 2 hours sleep a day and be so volitile that you couldn’t take initiative and do tasks that they were missing in order to help, they believed you were trying to steal thier job or something and started causing trouble, so it came to a state where I would ask for absolutely every task with these particular members of staff, okay it was only 2-3 but they were the primary staff supervisors and I was attempting to get along with them and do the work without causing trouble but they were always so agitated that even asking questions infuriated them. Well I say the NEC but thats just where creativents were based the actual NEC staff were always lovely and when I worked with offtowork the lady who runs the NEC arena restaurant always loved me and knew how hard a worker I was and how good I was at least I was respected in that job and was even a team leader and supervisor for offtowork for a while til my psycho ex jen got me fired, but thats another story Im sure you’ve read in the past.

So to get back on track, lets make these bullet points

1: Make it so the people who can sign out of the working week are those it was intended for only, management and owners who have to work longer hours than this in order to reliably run thier operations, not the everday workers, this will create more jobs and lead to fresher happier workers and a more efficient workforce, not overtired stressed out idiots who make mistakes and cause problems

2: Think about reducing the working week to match europe, now if you really think about this it will mean a few side benefits come in, with reduced hours there will be more jobs available, many more jobs, this will drastically reduce the number of unemployed on benefits, this will reduce this from government spending which will actually reduce the taxes you pay and this would result in a relatively net even income for those already employed, more free time which means more spending on lesure activities which helps the economy which also helps employment and the country as a whole, there are a vast number of knock on effects that comes from reducing the working week, that is why it works so well in europe compared to over here.

3: I am lead to believe that increasing the pension would also create far more jobs as people are afraid to retire as they cannot live on the funds they recieve, this means that all of the shops you would normally find young people are employed are now populated by pensioners, you may have noticed that your supermarket and poundland you are being served by old people rather than the 16-20 year olds you would get back in the days where I worked in retail. This isn’t really good for society as sure maybe old people have more experience but you’re just creating an adverse employment situation where young people aren’t able to get the jobs in order to gain experience and references and generate taxes and this will simply lead to a truly lost generation where they have absolutely no choice but to go on benefits as employers have in the past asked for 2 working references in the past year, which was the most ridiculous thing anyone could ever possibly ask for because when I applied to that job I had just come out of working for offtowork for 2-3 years and had no other working references to provide so I could not get the job with this other agency as a result of them requiring such pathetic references. But again if the young people are never able to get a job as the market is filled with older and older people how is this ever going to get fixed they will only create further burdens upon society, and also young people are the people you really want working because they are target consumers by corporations and if you have them employed they will spend thier disposable incomes on the latest technologies and all of the little cute things they need to make thier houses homes whereas old people usually have collected a lifetime of things and will not spend what they do not require and maybe save up during this time when society really needs spending in order to prevent negative financial circumstances for the country as opposed to saving. Maybe this is over generalisation and age steriotyping but in the papers it was also mentioned that old people should take certain jobs as opposed to others, immediately I thought a good one would be call centers as old people love to chat and this would be ideal for them where young people do not like working this as much.

Anyway I have a lot of reforms I would make that would make sense if I was in charge of the country but of course that would never happen and the chances of me ever becoming the MP that is in charge of these particular things is fairly slim also due to the fact that I would never get elected and have never attempted to run for office, heck imagine an unemployed homeless guy in charge of your countries financial institution that would just be crazy right?

But if you don’t want to see your friends on the streets, single mums with children, disabled people and NHS cuts while organisations such as starbucks and famous people like alan car are allowed to not pay taxes despite earning millions and thier taxes would generate far more for this country than cutting off and killing 500 people then its your choice on whether or not you wish to protest, even if its not in london just protest on november fifth and remind the country that we can take it back from them if they choose to continue down this path of reckless budget cutting, sure labour ran up the credit card bill and conservatives are merely trying to pay it off, but you dont begin by stopping paying rent and heating while living on caviar and champagne, you begin by living within your means england whilst putting the people who serve you first. Heck maybe if there is civil war and our side needs a name, if the royals would stand behind us and do things right I would change my mind about them being useless as they are merely decorations at the moment, but if we gave them the power back maybe they would actually do the right things for us, I do think the queen is a kind lady and would do the right thing for her citizens if push came to shove, so maybe we should test that out. I did try writing to her about this and got a letter from her office so I don’t think she ever read my letter and appeal about how the government did this to me but who knows for sure. Either way she can’t sit back and watch the entire of england go down the pan in this manner surely, I mean what is the point in ruling a country that allows many of its citizens to die in the name of budget cutting, the cold winter is coming, will it be the winter of our discontent and spark civil war when gas prices rise and more people are forced to make difficult decisions onto wether to eat or be warm, to pay rent when the government cuts them off illegally or to eat and other ridiculous choices that nobody should ever be forced to make.

The latest series of ice road truckers deadliest roads have attempted to amp up the alleged threat levels of the roads this year after last years dreadfully boring season where everyone was paired off with local drivers, this year they have paired the ice road truckers together in an attempt to make it more interesting whilst keeping the safety of having a spotter on these unknown roads, also after one crew retired they bought in a team of newbies tino and tim zucker early on in the season in order to spice things up as neither tino nor tim have ever driven the ice roads or any dangerous roads with tim only ever having driven trucks in the back of a depot and never having setout on a long journey before.

Perhaps they chose these two because they would make more interesting tv and add to the danger levels but from the first moment I saw tim on camera and he stated how he’d already drank 20 energy drinks and his disregard for the danger and his attitude I knew immediately he would be a danger and after one attempt at the road his teammate decided forever he would be spotter due to his recklessness on the roads and his lack of experience in even handling larger lorries on long distance deliveries.

In this weeks episode it showed the teams delivering some dinosaur models to be exhibited, and immediately I had noticed they had been stored stupidly, I mean with the taller dinosaurs surely they knew they were too tall to fit through the caves and had not been wrapped remotely so that they would be seen by the camera whereas they could have been securely tied down lengthways and less prone to damage which is what makes me feel bad for lisa as she definitely did everything in her ability to ensure that the dinosaurs were undamaged and made it as far as a low bridge where inevitably the dinosaurs were decapitated because they were just too tall a load to fit under the bridge.

Unfortunately the other teams were not so careful with their loads, hugh’s load was never shown but it was clear from the talk of the artist stating all 6 dinosaurs were damaged that these arrived in a bad state too, however this may have been down to tim and tino’s reckless driving and deciding that racing against hugh and actually attempting to ram him off the road was a sensible idea, it was amazing that the statues arrived as well preserved as they did considering the reckless abandon they showed in speeding through the roads and not once considering the load until near the destination where the damage had already been done.

Tino and tim were rightly charged for the damages from their wages, which I’m surprised actually cover the expense of replacing the artwork considering the price such creatures would make in england or the united states of america, however clearly a trucker in this country would earn more in one delivery than the price of replacing the artwork, I just hope that other teams were not held responsible as there was clearly nothing lisa and her teammate could have done to protect those dinosaurs all the way to delivery and there was video evidence showing how carefully they had taken the delivery and how every duty of care was shown in delivering these items.

The major question remains how tim zucker at the very least will find employment when he returns from this journey as clearly if I was his boss or any other employer of drivers I would not employ him after his behaviour and attitude on the show, clearly he does not care about the loads and instead lives for the danger and thrills and would continue to express these reckless behaviours in the future and even influences tino to behave in such manners also so this proves that he would be a danger to any workforce encouraging dangerous behaviours on the road.

One issue with this season is that they have added in stock footage of landslides and other accidents that they continuously add into the episodes in order to pretend things are more dangerous than they actually are, but these clips of rockslides and other things like this simply distract from the episode because they are clearly happening elsewhere in another location filmed on an entirely different camera due to the change in contrast and filming quality, however they believe this adds to the episodes authenticity, also at the end of every episode they makeout some disaster is happening in the next one that when you watch the episode NEVER actually happens, so what have they hoped you forget by next week or what? Saying that though even with all of the distractions it does succeed in being more entertaining than the previous season however I believe it would be without the added stock footage and pretend dangers, all I can say is I hope tino and tim are taken on next season as otherwise they will most likely be unemployed for some time.

This festival season I was in the position to be able to work a few different events, I had to cancel T in the park because my tent had died at the isle of wight and I was in no position to purchase a new one in time to work at the event so the next event I was available for was V staffordshire at weston park.

Usually it would be full of familiar faces from previous years however this year it seemed most of the regular staff were nowhere to be found, of course I was placed on the Virgin “our house” and “hidden garden” bar so this was a little more closed off than the regular bars and not many staff were required on these however everyone would have still been on the staff campsite on the friday night none of us were working but I did not see anyone around. Add this to being taken advantage of by being placed on stock at regular barperson wages it made the event no fun especially as the A shift I would normally do was altered to be a longer shift rather than getting most of the event off. Talking to other staff members most people didnt find it very fun this year either so I’m not sure I will work further years unless there is more benefit or at least I wouldn’t be taken advantage of. Add to that the fact that the customer base is usually an older generation at V and this year it was full of 16-19 year olds it started to feel a little awkward and the staff base were mostly 18 this year also, I’ve never felt old or out of place but when everyones 18 and anyone over 20 is seen as old it gets a little wierd.

The next week however was leeds festival and only 9 of us were taken on for this because workers beer company did the actual alchohol serving and we were in charge of the pop tents, this event was a lot more fun and I got some time off to go see some bands, and was front row center dancing away in the dance tent during grimes’s set where she kept looking me in the eye throughout. I found her set really fun as rather than sing for most of it she did a setup where she used DJ decks to mix in the sounds and she looked like she was having a lot of fun dancing away up there. Having said that I got soaked in champagne being up front which was fun and cooling in the heat but going back to work on your non alchoholic bar at night stinking of champagne probably didnt give the best impression haha.

The first night was my one night off and I decided it was definately the night to go out and get drunk, we had the entire day off and although we were in at 10am the next morning I figured it was the best opportunity because other days I would be coming off shift as opposed to having the entire day to have fun. The alchohol I bought didnt last very long and the other flair staff decided to take an early night so I ended up staying up with the cantonese food truck people who were plying me with alchohol all night and we were all having a laugh, but when some dutch guys turned up and constantly were asking who I was things got a little wierd and I decided to turn in for the night, the 20th time you tell someone who you are does get a little awkward when we’re all staff from different places and these were the only people left awake and around the campfire.

Having said that I had a lot more fun working on these bars, though one of the guys I was working with was a bit of a dick and said “lets share tips” so I placed all of my tips in his cup throughout the day and at the end of it he just pocketed it all himself which was rather selfish considering he’d stated he was going to split them, but I couldn’t be bothered to get into an argument about it as he was being devious in his methods of serving anyway deliberately giving the drinks first then taking the cash and being slow in the hopes they would walk away before he returns with the change to go “oh you’re gone.. thanks for the tip” at least my tips were genuine tips not change that was mistakenly forgotten, I had customers even going “oh its £2.20.. not £2.50″ from where he had short changed them all.

There were some highlights working where random girls were wanting thier pictures taken with me and one even gave me a cake and wanted me to meet her after my shift, this lead to the other guys on my bar going into overdrive being right chavvy guys like builders going “ey up love, nice arse” and crap like that which more than anything scared customers away from the bar especially considering we were getting a lot of underage girls as it was a pop bar.

At the end of the day a number of customers would return with major shakes and I began to wonder why so i looked at the ingredients in the relentless energy drinks we were serving, many customers would have 5-10 a day and looking at the ingredients per can it would contain 50-59% sugar depending on the variety and 10% salt per can, also 160mg of caffiene and 100% of a few different nutrients listed so many people were on extreme overdoses of these or possibly crashing or having diabetic reactions due to the high blood sugar levels (considering they were sustaining these levels the entire weekend of the festival as well as eating and possibly even taking alchohol on board)

The bands on offer here were also the best selection of any of the festivals I had seen advertised and definately the best way to end the festival season, it included an all night DJ which allowed for all night partying to anyone so inclined, however on the last night the distinct smell of human waste and tents and airbeds being passed overhead were a danger to anyone wearing glasses and rather offputting to staying out the entire night. Luckily I was on the staff section so avoided the sunday night riots which are commonplace every year and walking to the shuttlebusses after the event you could see the number of raided tents which had been cut apart and abandonned and also burnt remains of previousely inhabited tents. Apparrently reading festival was more considerate and left thier tents behind for charities as a friend of mine worked there collecting the tents and also found some spare cash lying around (lucky her)

The next day a number of the staff were off to work at dorset steam fair, including kate who was at leeds with workers beer even though she worked for flair, however having worked at leeds and not been able to check my email i was unable to go which seemed like i missed out from photo’s I saw after the event however I was happy with the plans I had made to visit a friend while I was up in the area so I took a coach to york, a nice little town but on a bank holiday and not knowing the area asking for directions was difficult due to the number of tourists.

I managed to get to my hotel in suitable time and then head straight out to see my friend where we spent most of the night in a pub chatting away before heading back to hers to watch some shows and chat whilst drinking/smoking. Time got away from us and it was soon 3am and with her having to work the next day I went back to my hotel, one piece of advice is when you’ve got to wake up at 7am to have a shower and make breakfast I would not reccommend that you stay up all night drinking and smoking certain substances because you wont really want to get up, saying that though it was worth it as it was a hell of a lot of fun, and I do wish sometimes I lived nearer some of my friends so I could spend proper time with them more. After a nice breakfast it was time to catch the coach away from the north and back here.

With a lack of internet connection and just this library to be able to type in video’s are a thing of the past at present, and maybe for the forseable future as I dont know when Im going to be able to sort things out, people say constantly things will get better just life doesnt always work out that way.

Its hard to find motivation for things these days I mean look at what has happened, Im now homeless with very little access to the internet to even talk to people I considered friends (as its amazing how some people will abandon you when you’ve got difficulty in getting in touch or complicated situations in life) IVe lost the one person in this universe who actually made me feel I belonged here as Id always felt an outcast my entire life until I met steph and I really felt I belonged for the first time and that ID actually found someone who made me feel human and normal. I still respect all the reasons she had and I still love her completely.

Also in this economy its impossible to find full time work in hospitality (the sector Im qualified and experienced in because some people see it as the doss hole for getting part time jobs in until they can find something better, whereas I have worked in this sector for years towards the higher end of the scale and studied this at university) On top of that finding housing is hard because there is immense pressure on the housing sector resulting in increased rents in the private sector and I am probably unlikely to find anywhere in the council or charity housing associations because the government screwwed me illegally out of my housing benefits even admitting they owed it me but still refused to pay it to the association on time until after I was evicted by them and made homeless.

Sometimes I just wonder what the point in all of this is, things arent getting better anytime soon, steph is still dying and doesnt want me in her life so we wont get too close even though I was already so in love with her I was ready to marry her, and lets be honest I dont really care about much other than that, just all the shit happening at once and never having had anything work out in life, tell me how this is any different to my own personal hell on earth?

Sorry for the lame title… just another general update of the crap thats constantly going on… seems fitting.

So doctor who returned this week, and in my opinion not in the best style possible, sure they went with daleks because they are the most commercial and well known of the foes, but it just felt a little silly, with rory and amy having split up seemingly over the most stupid reason… that she couldn’t have babies despite them having had the doctors wife as thier child. Also with the whole pregnant not pregnant timeline it hints at things which would mean any medical problem associated with this could be solved by being in the tardis, also I am more than sure there are a number of solutions the doctor would be able to provide which could fix this. Of course I can understand the whole trying to protect each other and letting each other go because they love each other so much plot.

Anyway ignoring all of that it comes down to the fact that mysteriousely the doctor has been outwitted by the daleks but for the first ever time they want his help rather than attempting to exterminate him, completely going against the daleks zenophobic nature and thier deep pride to actually ask the doctor of all people for help without attempting to solve matters themselves appearing scared of thier own kind and also having another nature that goes against previous episodes defined natures where they keep thier ill and insane daleks as opposed to exterminating any weakness in the bloodlines.

Further to changes to previous plots and the fact that the dalaks have been wiped out so many times and ressurected and changed it is hard to keep track of which daleks these actually decend from, rory jokes “which colour” which supports this but really, what ever happened to the dalek+ model that was invented when churchill had his little dalek weapon and they were in space and made the dalek equivalent of the cars you see in the fast and the furious (whatever thier actual name is, pimped up blingy fat mobiles… but in dalek form)

So throwing the plotline out of the window the writers decided then that daleks were perfectly happy not only converting living and dead matter to dalek form (not just an automiton as they have established in previous series prior to the new episodes IE cybermen and the likes) they actually had to be dalek in form, and ignoring the complete racism of daleks being the supreme race and no others being acceptible, they convert a human into a dalek allowing her to keep her entire intelligence and humanity, something no dalek would allow not even an insane one.

Inevitibly this was all just a ridiculous episode long setup for a cheesy one liner where the human dalek lady wiped the entire daleks database/hivemind of references of the doctor so they would all say “doctor who” and it just felt really cheap and not worthy of being a proper doctor who episode, had this been some stupid comic relief special it would have been accepted but this was supposed to be the big dramatic introduction to the new season, and this was the stupid plot twist they told everyone about… I felt robbed.

Hopefully future episodes will be better, I believe the steven moffat episodes are coming up which are usually the better written ones, and if there is actually a common linking theme this season I hope it is nothing to do with what happened in this episode or the fact that the humanised dalek/converted human however you want to put it… stated “remember me” as he clearly has a time machine and could easily jump to that point in time and save her and take her out somewhere and do something, but this would not be an exciting plot and would put me off the series. Of course this could have simply been a minor leadup to the fact that the daleks dont remember the doctor but it could be different.

The main idea that has to be explored though is that everyone in the previous series stated this was where the doctor turned dark and started being known for bad things accross the universe which is why people were turning against him so this has to be an idea to be explored, also there has to be a point where the doctor would die and pass on to the next life, this breaks the cycle with him and his wife travelling in opposite directions of the timeline and would result in him being able to free her from the library in his new form and the both of them being able to travel along the timeline together at the same time in mutual rebirth. (I hope that isnt a spoiler too much… just it makes sense that way)

In doing things the american way where theres 5 episodes a minor break then the rest of the season it could result in his death being episode 5 or at least there will be a major plot development at that point to entice people to watch the season when it returns (if its well written) but with 4 episodes to create such a leadup it could be difficult to pull off such a feat and allow for thier usual xmas special. Whatever happens I am hopeing that there is a dramatic improvement to the next episode as this felt like a very cheap quip with daleks thrown in for good measure as opposed to a high quality episode.