The world ends on july 11th 2012 in the early hours.. or at least I wish it would, as for me thats the day I am officially evicted because of this stupid government screwup where they froze my housing benefits as I couldn’t provide 5 wageslips for working one weekend I was given permission to sign off and work, because it only provided 1 wage slip. There is no miraculous savour for me, no life changing event, just someone slipping away to nothing unnoticed and uncared about. I talk a lot of things in the episode but lets face it I have no energy to fight anymore, a whole week has drifted by where IVe had no energy to do anything, Ive just sat and moped and lost time doing nothing, I dont have the energy to make plans, I just want to die to be honest as it would be over and no more shit to deal with. What good to I have remotely in life anyway, especially after losing my home and everything and everyone I care about.
I wrote to the queen who couldn’t do anything as you’ve seen in another video and number 10 couldn’t even care enough to even give a reply, news organisations want paper trails I don’t keep track of and half of which are between the council and my housing association anyway so I don’t have access to these. I just want to keep my home, but all I get is further depression and less hope. I shouldn’t let new people into my life really, it was a mistake getting close to someone and caring when Im in no state to really socialise on any level.
Ill try to do more video’s before eviction but no promises due to demotivation and lack of energy.
